Fractured But Not Broken. CFIDS/CFS/GWI/PTSD

  Ruby

There is no crime in having CFS, GWI or PTSD. Yet grievous acts of criminal cruelty have been afflicted onto millions of patients that have these diseases. I have spent the past year reflecting on our journey with our illness. Although I have been deeply fractured by this battle of a journey; I am not broken. It is for the patients that have come before us and those that are yet to be diagnosed; that I have decided to devote the next 5 years of my life to further awareness  for these diseases. We intend to accomplish this through a national political campaign that is designed to shake up the misunderstandings, the misdiagnosis and the misconceptions about these diseases. The first step in the process to come will be our book, Viral Assault, to be published in December 2015. The collaboration of this book involves a team that is widely respected, internationally recognized and highly credible. I can promise you one thing. I will not stop, I will not quit and I will not go unheard throughout this campaign. You, the patients, deserve to have the funding for research and treatment centers. You will never get this without a political campaign movement and that is why I have chosen to undertake this project.

Although I have not been in the op-ed category with my past blogs, I feel a need to express to you my concerns for the path our diseases are on. I see some progress, I see more regression. I see deception and I see those that cater to causes that will never align our diseases with positive movement in the future. I see a political system in chaos and I see some groups trying to step into state or national politics without any experience in the field. Then, I see “the players”. The players are interesting to me as I think they have held up progress for our diseases for their own self interests. Be it incompetence, inertia or cover your own behinds; these “players” are bottom feeders aligning with folks that really do not have you as a patient in their best interest. I also see some absolutely incredible and amazing folks, whom I call the “Movers and Shakers” emerging in GWI, CFS and possibly PTSD. These folks are brave, highly intelligent, politically savvy and have excellent credentials. Most of these folks, happen to have served our country as well. I am excited to see what they do on The Hill and for the patients. I am excited to support them in their goals to serve patients.

During the writing of Viral Assault, a documentary will be made to reflect the journey of the process. The documentary and book will reflect on facts of our personal journey through this illness, past historical facts that have never been explored and future studies on a theory tying PTSD-GWI-CFS with a possible link to the unthinkable. We invite you to join us on this journey via you tube.

The book and documentary fuel and justify the platform for a political campaign. Political campaigns are best run by seasoned professionals.

The treacherous political process is no place for amateurs. Therefore, we have elected to have the most experienced, knowledgeable and expert navigators of the political process on our team.

For now, the primary avenue for communication for patients will be this blog. We look forward to providing you with additional media through a variety of avenues.

I know that so many patients have been fractured as have I through these diseases. I implore you to stay strong and look to a brighter future of better understanding, treatment and quality of lives.

It has taken me a year to circle to this point of beginning to write Viral Assault. The humiliation, shame and cruelty I experienced through our journey was nearly unbearable at times. To begin the book, I needed to come to terms with how badly I had fractured during the process. While facing the pain, I realized that although I was deeply fractured, I was not broken. I continue on a path of healing with Blake and I look forward to giving you an update very soon on Blake’s condition.

 

JULIA HUGO RACHEL

VERY LUCKY GIRL ON VALCYTE

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Watching Over Blake. Eyes on Progress. CFIDS/ GWI/TBI/ PTSD

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              “The flight of the owl is slow, silent and solitary”

 If I could give my son anything,  I thought I would give him back the 12 years he lost of his youth. Since I cannot do this, I am determined to give him a future of unlimited possibilities.

When experiencing a chronic illness, it feels as if time stands still. In actuality, time is moving slowly and the flight is silent. Silence envelopes ones life after the combustion of life halts to a stop with a chronic illness.

I have taken the role as an observer in Blake’s’ life. He began independent living in November 2012. Two weeks after the start of his new beginning, Blake was hit by a car in front of the University he attends. The hit was gruesome, yet Blake managed to hobble away with minor injuries.

I watched and slowly waited as he fell into a relapse that amounted to a vast drop in grades, weight and cognitive abilities. I watched as he fought to overcome the slide in order to slowly recover his abilities. It took 8 months to recover fully from the trauma.

Although 8 months seems like a long time, it is a drop in the bucket compared to 12 years of ones life being ripped apart. Especially for a 24-year-old.

This relapse was different on many levels. This relapse was caused by a physical trauma, not a setback from an unknown factor. During this relapse, Blake never missed a day of school as a full-time University student studying Physics/Engineering. Although his weight and grades declined, he used every tool available to him to methodically step back up the ladder to his peak.

Blake has now successfully attended University full-time (without missing one day for illness) for 6 consecutive quarters. He has now achieved perfect attendance for the past 16 months. His classes include upper division mathematics, physics, engineering, chemistry, biology and geology. His GPA before the car trauma was 3.66 per quarter. His GPA today is 3.25 per quarter.

Blake began a mild physical exercise program of walking and lifting weights 14 months ago. He decided to join an Army readiness program and started running 11 months ago. He had to halt running and physical exercise for 2 months while he was hobbling on a sprained ankle after the car trauma. He began running again in February and by June was up to 4 miles, three times per week. He has also participated in vigorous ruck marches and tactical labs in the field under extreme conditions.

Blake was put on Valtrex as a therapy after his Valcyte treatment. Post Valcyte and present Valtex treatment, the opportunistic infections are now gone. The HHV-6 levels are lowered. The EBV are still high. Anti-viral treatment is like good endocrine treatment in that the patient is treated on “how he/she feels” not necessarily on “what the lab values say”.

On a recent check-up with his infectious disease doctor, it was determined that Blake may be eligible for military service in 6 months. Until then, he will be starting an antibiotic for progressive treatment for inflammation in the eyes which is starting to be recognized in patients. The tell sign is red lines in the eyes. I have noticed strata looking lines in Blake’s  eyes and attributed this to the onset of his illness.

Blake was diagnosed with a thyroid disorder in March. He has been on thyroid medication for five months and notices a great improvement. His endocrine values were slightly off. His thyroid ultrasound showed a small goiter and a cyst. His familial history on the Irish side shows he is a 6th generation thyroid patient. Many physicians diagnose thyroid issues on lab values only. It is imperative to find an endocrinologist that diagnoses on;  lab values + ultrasound + familial history + how the patient feels = diagnosis.

At this moment, Blake is at 85% of cognitive and 80% of physical capacity. The goal of his treatment team is to get Blake to 100%. Blake hopes that will happen in the next 6 months. His goal is to join the Military and to serve his Country.

For a long time, I fought and watched over Blake at close range. Now I find myself watching from a greater distance. I wondered if Blake would be able to “catch up” socially and if he could find his way. We had  three prior attempts at independent living. This fourth time has proven to be exciting, yet not without a few hurdles.

Blake has a faith that is strong and complete. He is a strong young man  with  dreams and goals. It is a pleasure to see him play sports with his peers, to participate in ocean and lake activities, to attend social functions and to give to others through community service.

All of this would not be possible without Valcyte treatment. The alternative immune treatments he participated in look to be responsible for stimulating the energy to exercise; but only after primary healing had occurred. The Valtrex (or other long-term anti-viral) is a necessity for treatment to continue fighting the viruses after the heavy hitting Valcyte treatment. Clearing up any opportunistic infections is critical to success. A patient will never attain a moderate level of health if a thyroid illness is present and remains undiagnosed.

We have no idea what the next year will bring. We are certain that whatever this illness throws at us, we are willing to fly slow and defeat it.

JULIA HUGO RACHEL

VERY LUCKY GIRL ON VALCYTE

Man Down. Millions More Going Down from PTSD/GWI/CFIDS

If I only knew 10 years ago what I know today, so many  lives would be changed and more might be saved.  

The shock and awe of watching somebody you love get eaten up by a  mystery illness is overwhelming and  frightening.

We train so hard to be the toughest, to know how and why to be the best. When something unknown explodes in life and there are no tools to put the pieces back together, what do you do? How can one do their best with zero?

During the past decade, we learned how to create our own tools and survive. At this point in Blake’s recovery, we could easily lace up our boots, stand  straight and never look back at this issue.  Except for one thing: the man down was my son and the millions more falling are children and soldiers/warriors. We don’t leave anyone behind, that is unacceptable to us. We walk towards the fight, not away. We have learned  a few tools and we can  now hunt for more solutions. Walking away is just not an option for us. Our goal is to help others by sharing our journey.

HHV-6 is a virus that attacks the brain. Although most people carry this virus in their body in a latent status, what they do not know, is that it is like a grenade waiting to go  Rambo at a given chance. This virus “reactivates” which means that when a human is hit with a bacteria, gets a severe flu, catches a pathogen in some 3rd world country or undergoes a physical injury/trauma the grenade  pin  might get  pulled. The human body is then  weakened just enough whereas  this virus  starts  replicating. HHV-6 virus has been linked with Multiple Sclerosis, Autism, ALS, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome,  Lyme Disease,  Gulf War Illness  and  PTSD.

We have scientific proof linking HHV-6A to these diseases. This does not mean this virus is the sole cause  of the disease; but  what it does mean is that the patient  has a shot at recovery by treating the  HHV-6 virus  by  getting  it  lowered to  within  an  acceptable  and  safe  range.

HHV-6 virus loves to hang out with the Epstein Barr Virus (EBV) as well as a bacteria called Mycoplasma. They sound benign, but both are stealth pathogens and cause destruction to organs and the immune system. This may not mean much to you, but you might be surprised to learn that these 3 partners are rampant within the military, are contagious  and may be linked with suicide and  PTSD.

 HHV-6 has been proven to be linked with schizophrenia and suicide. Viral antibody titers have been proven to spike  dramatically around 6 weeks prior to suicidal  behavior.

When Blake first got hit with these viruses, his “mood and character changed noticeably”. I mentioned this to doctors and they sent Blake for a psych exam and prescribed him antidepressants. Had we caught this one small  “tell-tale sign” at early onset;  we would not have  needed  to  visit  100  specialists,  spend  a  quarter  million  dollars and  stare  at  the  edge  of  death  for  years.

This virus likes to tango with  testosterone and cortisol.  We are seeing the highest percentage of suicides in men from the ages of teens through late 20’s. This could be due to the fact that men have testosterone and cortisol changes/activity  occurring  around  those  ages.

If the virus is in reactivation mode, many antidepressants will work against the patient instead of for him/her.  This is because the patient is not clinically depressed, but rather  is suffering from a brain disease. Psychologists and antidepressants are useful; but only in tandem with addressing and understanding the underlying neuro immune factor. The brains of those with TBI’s and  brain virus need to be monitored by neuropsychologists  who  are  skilled  in  brain  trauma  and  healing.

 The virus attacks the brain in a way that shuts off the inherited survival and will to live trait. It can cause unnatural behaviors in people who would normally never consider suicidal thoughts. The virus seems to hit the body hardest after the initial assault when a  patient  is pushing themselves to their emotional and  physical  limits; not knowing that their body is in trouble.

During combat, extreme athletic training or when recovering from an injury; the body is normally in replenish and heal mode during down or sleep time. However,  if  a  virus is escalating  in the blood  and the person is pushing it to the limits; normal replenishment cycles malfunction. As this cycle continues, the  brain  disease  targets  areas  of  the brain thereby fostering suicidal tendencies.

One sunny day as I was heading out to the horse  pasture, I looked  in Blake’s window  and  witnessed him with a loaded shotgun in his mouth. He was sitting on his bed, he had a  glazed and blank expression on his face. It took me a split second to figure out that I couldn’t run fast enough to get to him through the back doors of our house before he pulled the trigger. In the next hair of a second, I was tearing  at  a screen and hurling myself  through  a  4×6 ft.  double pained window.  At that point in time, nothing mattered to me except for getting that gun out of his mouth. I was able to accomplish  that mission without any shots fired. Blake is alive and well today. Yet every time I read a Military report on our suicide numbers my heart  fractures just a little more. Every casualty reported (and we know how many are not reported), news report and every email or call I get about this issue; never gets easier. This is one of the main reasons we are lacing our boots tighter, standing  straight  and  walking  towards  you  for  support; tool  trucks  in  tow.

PTSD awareness is on the tongue of many right now. We know this is stress related, but what we didn’t know is that some, or many of these cases might be related to HHV-6 and/or Traumatic Brain Injuries. When we look at high-resolution MRI’s of these patients, white spots are seen on the brain.  These spots can be caused by this virus. The spots can go away with anti-viral treatment.

The only known medication scientifically proven to effectively treat HHV-6 is an anti-viral named Valcyte. In a 2006 research study, Valcyte was found to be effective in lowering HHV-6 titers in a subgroup of patients having high antibody titers to HHV-6 and EBV.

Why does this matter? Because this information could save lives. If you notice 3 OR MORE of the symptoms below, please read our prior blog called “Getting Intimate with Your Viruses Part 1 & Part 2”.  The tests and tools listed in that Blog took us 10 years to figure out.

Symptoms to look for include: 1) Change in moods or outlook in  life; Anger, Depression. 2) Fatigue with unrefreshing sleep. 3) Insomnia 4) Memory loss. 5) Cognitive decline. 6) Migraines. 7) Weight loss 8) Flu like symptoms that linger 9) Joint/Muscle pain. 10) Very low blood pressure.

Sometimes all we “see” is the depression at first onset. But if you can look beyond that and notice any other symptoms noted above, you then have biological options to research. The sooner you catch this virus and  seek treatment, the  greater  your  chance for a successful and timely recovery.

We have 10,000 disability claims filed to the VA each month. We have unusually sky-high suicide rates. We are looking at high numbers of deployed coming home within the next 18 months; which some predict up to 50% could be afflicted. All three of these groups need to know that if they present with 3 or more of the symptoms above, they have the right to a blood test for this virus and all of the others linked with it. These are high risk groups.

It is up to us, toolbox in hand, to be walking towards those that need us. Please support those at high risk because very few,  if any,  are getting the support they deserve and need.

 Our  team  will  be arriving  with  a  convoy  of  tool  trucks.  (More on that program to come).

JULIA HUGO RACHEL

VERY LUCKY GIRL ON  VALCYTE

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Blake Update: Blake made it through school without missing one day for sick time. This is the first time in 10 years that he has been able to make it through a school term, uninterrupted. He also received a 3.66 gpa this quarter while studying  Physics/Engineering as a major and Military Science as a minor.

Blake’s  weight is at 188 lbs and holding steady; he is 6’2″. He is starting to regain muscle mass. He has  gained back 58 lbs. He looks healthy, yet the cognitive decline is still noticeable when he is tired.

We attribute this remarkable acceleration in recovery to the initial Phase 1 of treatment:  vitamin therapy, diet change and 3 years of Valcyte treatment. 

Phase 2:  has been long-term use of  Valtrex for the chronic EBV. Unexpectedly, an incredible benefit has been weekly IV’s of Vitamins/Minerals and Glutathione administered by a well versed Natural Path. This is not a Meyers Cocktail, but rather a  formula based on Blake’s  needs. We feel these IV’s may be essential for many patients and plan on focussed research on this treatment in coordination with antimicrobial treatments. More information to come on these IV’s. We have heard of great success stories from military and civilian patients  receiving  these IV’s and are excited.  Blake would not  have excelled as much as he has this past 3 months, had it not been from the combination of  holistic and western medical treatments in tandem. This was duly noted and planned  from the onset as Blake needed something to boost the immune system; we  just  did  not  know  “what”  that would  be.

Phase 3:  will be adding cardio physical exercise into Blake’s  routine as well as starting on medication to address bacterium and viruses that surfaced as the HHV-6 and EBV lowered. This is a long distance run, not a sprint. We were told  by our original  Doctor, to be ready for the long haul.  Blake was too far down the ladder.  Thus we prepared for a journey, not a jaunt. Doc warned us that as the HHV-6 was lowered, other viruses that invaded when Blake was so weak would rear their heads.

Blake will try summer school to get a calculus class completed. After that, he has 4 weeks to rest until Fall Quarter.  Blake is taking on a more serious leadership attitude about getting well. He is nearly  independent. He is motivated constantly by the fact that he cannot wait to have 100%  health and to ultimately serve his country.

A few days ago, on a sunny summer day, I took a chance and looked through Blake’s  office window on my way to the vegetable garden.  I smiled.  His stubborn Yellow Labrador was at his feet and I noticed he was intently looking at a video just posted by Mr. Don Shipley of Extreme SEAL Experience. I could tell by the expression on  Blake’s face that he has a new dream. His life long dream changed from going to Annapolis and flying  planes. He switched over to linguistics and jumping  out of  planes.   The  fact that  Blake is  even  dreaming  about  his  future  was  worth  that sacred  glance  through  the  window.

Viral Jungle Terrain. Navigating CFIDS/GWI/PTSD Diseases.

“At the going down of the sun and in the morning; We will remember them.”

~ Laurence Binyon’s WWI Poem

“For the Fallen.”

When we experience great loss, we have a choice in how we respond. We can choose to follow our fallen or losses; or we can choose to hone our focus in order to move forward.  I respectfully choose to move forward in honor of those fallen and in spite of any losses  experienced.

Honing focus takes training, experience and the will to do so. If I lose or shift focus, my goals are not met. What are the common goals that link Autism, CFIDS, GWI, Epilepsy and Lyme? These diseases have been proven to be scientifically linked and associated through the same and or similar viruses, brain abnormalities, immune dysfunction, gut pathogens, heart abnormalities and genetic predispositions; amongst many other biological factors.

It looks as if  common goals for biological care include but are not limited to:

    1.  Diagnosis and treatment for viruses and pathogens associated in each one of these diseases.
    2. Get appropriate care for the brains of these patients; such as High Resolution specialized MRI’s and Medications that will help heal the brain and central nervous system.
    3. Diagnose and treat the dysfunctional immune system.
    4. Diagnose and treat the endocrine and rheumatoid systems.
    5. Diagnose the gut system; test for pathogens and treat these.
    6. Assess the reproductive system of patients and treat if affected.
    7. Test for nutritional deficiencies associated with cellular and gut malabsorption. Address these mineral and vitamin deficiencies with a licensed DO or Nutrition expert in order to add  high-grade supplements shown to be lacking by blood tests.
    8. Check for PON1 deficiency; exposure to Molds, Toxins, Chemicals and vaccine reactions.

Having said all of  this, it looks as if the entire physical operating systems of these patients needs to be addressed and treated. Treating only one of these systems will likely not return a patient to status quo and this methodology might not  be enough to save a patients life.

It will only be through a collective, combined and collaborative effort across a broad spectrum of specialties that patients of these diseases will heal. Too many systems of these patients are being affected and degraded. It would be nearly impossible to have one doctor capable of addressing so many different multi system dysfunctions across such a broad spectrum of specialties. Specialists from divergent fields are needed in order to treat all patient systems for optimal health.

Unfortunately, medicine alone will not prevent these diseases from escalating nor will it help to heal patients. Political action needs to take place in order to ensure  protection and progress for these patients. Progress in research and treatment has been backlogged, halted, diverted and prohibited in some cases due to the siloed factor. The only method to untangle this debri field successfully is through political action.

Epilepsy has not seen a new treatment drug in nearly 50+ years. Epilepsy is prevalent amongst patients across all of these diseases. Outdated, archaic brain surgeries are still being performed on some Epilepsy patients.

Autism is escalating at an alarming rate and is highly associated with families having CFS and GWI. Lyme disease is intertwined with CFS, GWI  and Autism. Ticks now carry all sorts of different types of pathogens such as Micoplasma plus tick borne pathogens that have not even been named as of yet. Lyme families experience higher rates of Epilepsy, Autism and CFIDS.

Gulf War Illness is flip-flopping all over the map. It looks as if there is absolutely no good treatment centers or forms of treatment for GWI. Soldiers and Veterans are left behind with no available treatment options in sight.

CFIDS has made some leaps and bounds but has also been thrown some horrendous red flags by agencies playing “referee” in a game they know nothing about; or pretend to know nothing about. Case in point; the name of CFS is completely wrong, the approach  for treatment is wrong, the image is wrong and the hysteria is correct.

Categorizing Autism and busting up ASD’s into segmented disorders is another example of  diverting a serious biological illness into a DSM category.  By deliberately  labeling ASD’s as psychosomatic disorders  instead of  factually categorizing these  as the proven biological  diseases they are,  is a violent disregard of human rights. Public safety is at stake  and the national economy is at risk by not treating these biological diseases.

The U.S. Government spent nearly 300 Million Dollars in litigation arguing that “Gulf War Illness does not exist”. The debate was settled in court. GWI exists and is related with CFIDS and Autism by infectious common denominators. GWI is now showing up in non-deployed soldiers and their children have higher rates of Autism.

Lyme disease communities have fought hard to get their disease recognized and labeled as a biological disease. Pathogens, viruses, immune dysfunction and brain abnormalities will continue to rise within Lyme disease unless all body systems affected are addressed. Lyme disease is no longer about “the tick disease”. Lyme now ranks in the neurological, infectious, and immunity specialties.

Autism, CFIDS and GWI hold keys of research and discovery that Lyme Patients need for optimal treatment and prevention right now.  New information is emerging that  tick borne pathogens are being carried by vectors other than ticks. Lyme is progressing to a new level; which translates to new sources of threats and areas of contagion.

Because these diseases are so strongly intertwined and scientifically linked, because these diseases each hold a piece of the puzzle needed to help one another progress,  because these diseases are deliberately being overlooked and separated from each other in a “siloed” situation; collaboration and political action needs to take place in order for immediate progress to occur.

Long time advocates like  Marc Iverson, John Herd, Pat Fero, Erik Johnson, Hillary Johnson  and all of the dedicated advocacy groups, 501C3s, Organizations, Websites and Facebook Pages have kept this ball rolling.

It is the combination of all of these Advocacy Voices and Groups (and more)  whom have ” held and lit the torches”  which continuously ignited the perpetual  REFUSAL to let this cause for action be forgotten.

Lest anyone think that our fight for research, diagnosis, treatment and prevention is in a “discouraging era”; you are mistaken.

Jungle terrain navigation is survived by fierce warriors. Inch by inch, tactics of the highest caliber must be learned, practiced and employed in order to survive.  Successful exit from a jungle takes skills, strategy, unconventional tools and wisdom. Navigating Autism/CFIDS/Epilepsy/GWI and Lyme will take the same sort of innovative tactics.

The only way to achieve progress for research and treatment on a viable scale, is through national political action. Our diseases need a game changer by utilizing national and international  political action with the goal to benefit medical progress for the justice of the patients of these diseases that have been oppressed.

JULIA HUGO RACHEL

Very Lucky Girl  on Valcyte

Blake Update: He has Gained 12 lbs this summer (that is a total overall gain of 35 lbs, with 20 more lbs to gain). He is off Valcyte and is now  on long-term antivirals (Valtrex). He is stepping up from Junior College Level to University Level. His major is in Physics/Engineering and Military Science. He is going to try to attend University 3/4 time with support from the disability department to help him with his cognitive issues. He has hopes of adding back physical exercise within 18 months. We now have hope for a 90-100% recovery. Without a doubt, Valcyte treatment saved Blake’s Life. We now work on Phase 3; the Immune and Nutritional and Lifestyle systems. “Inch by inch” we work towards healing and recovery with this illness. Blake still has days of being bedridden. I would estimate these run from 1-3 days per month. All Orthostatic Intolerance is gone after the Valcyte treatment. We keep an eye on his DHEA levels as he gets migraines when the DHEA is low. Blake has shown up with 5 different underlying pathogens. We will report on treatment for echovirus B, VZV, Chlamydia PN., etc on the next report.

I encourage everyone to get tested for the viruses and pathogens known to be associated with our diseases. (These are listed in our prior blogs.) Getting tested is a step that can be taken right now. More Doctors and Physicians across the country are prescribing antivirals and antibiotics to treat these infections right now. I have heard from New York, Texas, California, Nevada, Arizona, New Jersey, Florida, Washington State, Oregon, Virginia, CT, Washington DC,  Hawaii and many other States that patients are getting treatment for their viral and pathogen Infections RIGHT NOW. Although more phases of treatment are needed, this is a treatment avenue patients may take right now should they choose to do so.

This is NOT a Bull Fight! OR IS IT? CFS/CFIDS/GWI/PTSD

 In Spain, Bull Fighting traces its’ origin back to 711 A.D.   Nearly one million Spanish Citizens flock to watch bullfighting every year.

Originally accomplished on horseback by the Aristocracy, the sport changed to that of the commoners in 1724. Since commoners could not afford horses, they developed the art of bullfighting on foot, unarmed.

The start of the Fight begins by the sounding of  a Trumpet. Picadores enter the ring and engage in about a 10 minute ritual. During this ritual, spears are thrown into the Bull to weaken him. The trumpet sounds again and in walks the Matador.

There are more “players” in the Bullfighting ring in modern times. There are the Picadores (Lancers) whom are mounted on horseback. The Banderilleros (Flaggers), The Mozo de espada (Sword Servant) and the Matador.

In the final stage of the Fight, the Matador does a spectacular “Dance” with death as the crowd shouts “Jole!”  Then the Matador kills the Bull.

Bullfighting, although part of Spanish tradition and culture, is criticized by many animal rights activist groups. If the tradition of Bullfighting in Spain has raised such awareness for such activist groups as StopOurShame (SOS), I cannot help but wonder why our  Viral Issue and co-related diseases have escaped the art of Activism.

Could it be that we are in a Bull Fight in which The Picadores have thrown their spears into us and we have yet to be slaughtered? Or are we about to begin a new wave of advocacy called Activism?

The “Charging Bull” is a 7100lb bronze sculpture that stands near Wall Street in New York City. An artist named Di Modica spent over $360,000.00 to create, cast and install this sculpture. Following the 1987 stock market Crash, this Bull was to be a symbol of  “strength and power to the American People”. Di Modica created “The Bull” as an act of Guerilla Art. On December 15, 1989 he positioned the massive sculpture beneath a massive Christmas Tree in the Middle of Broad Street in front of the New York Stock Exchange. Di Modica handed out flyers about his art and gave the sculpture to the people of New York as a Christmas Gift.

The Police SEIZED The Bull and placed it in an impound lot. A public outcry ensued which Led the New York City Department of Parks and Recreation to install “The Bull” back onto the streets of New York! The Bull was placed 2 blocks south of the New York Stock Exchange. The people in this instance, went from advocacy to activism to achieve bringing The Bull Back. They did so “with unity of purpose”.

You cannot buy unity. You cannot enforce unity. Unity has to come from a sense of passion for a united purpose. To push or proselytize will not be effective methods for bringing awareness or advocacy. The “hard sell” in not necessary to achieve a groups end goals.

If we look towards activism, it might be prudent to look at other models of success. Some of these models can be seen in Coups, Revolutions, Battles and other Activist Groups. We are in the age of heightened social media tools which are at our disposal. However, it would be (and has been) a vast mistake to think that any advocacy could be a success without “on the street” campaigning.

The recent Coup in Egypt was successful in part to the efforts of the AGYM.  AGYM has been cited in The New Yorker as well as Wired  as being so successful in their movements, due to their use of Social Media Tools.  AGYM has fervently made it clear that “using social media tools like Facebook, Twitter, You Tube, etc. were extensions and traditional forms of interactions, NOT replacements”. Their point being that the BULK of their activism work is done “on the streets” by traditional means. (Flyers, Posters, WORD OF MOUTH,  Organizing Protests, Campaigning at Universities and Engaging with Neighborhood leaders.)

 Modern Activism takes Street Action, Social Media Tools and Political Lobbying to achieve a social and political movement. Be it The Arts, The Sciences or with a Health Issue; you must use Political Lobbying in a democracy to further your cause.

Many Governments have laws they will choose to enact to strengthen their security apparatus; should they need to. This is why it is important to strategize for a Peaceful Social-Political Movement.

Strategic Planning and turning our weaknesses into strengths only enhance our chance of voicing and winning the Fight For Our Cause. The extension to this arm is the realization that we need to do this in mass numbers. Infected Military and Civilians have both been left to suffer. Suicide rates amongst Soldiers now out number deaths in Combat. (For the past 2 years.)

 HHV-6A   is a  stealth brain virus that can be capable of inducing mania in a sane human being; under certain reactivation circumstances. This may be the most hideous and scary aspect of our illness. The fact that it could be Anywhere, Anytime, Anyone who could be hit with these viruses is frightening. The fact that a Normal, Healthy, Intellectual, Athletic, Strong and Stable human can revert to suicidal tendencies after being afflicted  is horrifying. This is across the board demographics in that it targets Pediatrics, Males, Females, Youth, Middle Age, Geriatric, Civilians and Soldiers.

Patients are being diagnosed with psychiatric or psychological disorders when in fact there may be an underlying biological Issue. It is cheaper and easier to diagnose an epidemic as “psychosomatic”. (CDC’s ruling on The Lake Tahoe Epidemic.)

 Some of the pathogens that piggyback with HHV-6A are defined as “Stealth”  due to their opportunistic behaviors.  Many people across the Globe are stumped by these diseases and the fact that CFS/Lyme/GWI/Autism are spreading at an alarming rate.  Belgium, The UK, China, Japan, The Netherlands, Europe, Australia,  New Zealand and many others are all wondering the same thing. What IS GOING ON?

So far, we know that we are dealing with an infectious disease. If this is 100% the case, then why are people who don’t touch, don’t live together, are neighbors, in the same church or just live in the same community contracting these viruses? This leads me to believe that there could be a “contagious”  period at some point.

In the book  “The Thirteen Bankers: The Wall Street Takeover and The Next Financial Meltdown”,  by Simon Johnson and James Kwak; the authors identify why this current financial crisis on Wall Street has occurred. From Banking and Housing Policies to deregulatory ideology and Wall Street Political Influence, the authors diagram the unfolding.

Political Influence is the “Tipping Point” for all of us with CFS/Lyme/GWI/Autism and every other disease. If the tipping point for us as a collective patient whole is political influence, then it would be safe to say that advocacy, activism and political lobbying might get us the funding we all want and desperately deserve. Funding EQUALS Research which equals  Diagnosis, Treatment and Prevention.

I was told the moment I stepped foot on a Cattle Ranch,  “NEVER turn your back on a BULL”.  To this day, those words ring true in my ears and I follow them implicitly.

WE ARE NOW THE BULL. Yet we have been weak and viewed as such; thus  Backs have been turned on us and we have been left to suffer. We have a choice.  We can stand in the arena with SPEARS in our back ready for slaughter. We can progress towards a United end goal. Frankly, I am not waiting for that “Second Trumpet”  to signal my FATE,  I am heading for the end goal.

GODSPEED.

JULIA  HUGO  RACHEL

VERY LUCKY GIRL ON VALCYTE

Examining GWI/CFS/CFIDS/PTSD. Getting Intimate with our Viruses. Part #1

As with any  disease with a potential newfound etiology; there are wide variations of treatment options and choices available to the patient afflicted.  In the beginning stages of a disease, we look to the plethora of Scientific Researchers who study  and explore every possible avenue of the disease at hand in order to find viable treatment options, routes and cures.  It is through studying all branches, avenues and options that these researchers are able to narrow down specific and/or possible etiology as well as possible treatments and cures. I commend every researcher, scientist and doctor who has devoted his or her time and energy in the efforts to discover laboratory methodologies, causations, subsets, treatment options and all else involved with CFS/CFIDS/GWI/PTSD As patients, we owe our lives to these Advocates, Researchers, Scientists, Doctors and Groups devoted to our cause.

In the mean time, these separate branches of research can take decades if not longer to get end results. Identifying Disease etiology is a Giant Step; then exploring and finding out what routes to take for diagnosing and treatment are the branches of the tree that are time consuming and full of endless research. Along with research; comes Trial and Error, Successes and Failure. Then if a new drug needs to be created for treatment, the time frame for treatment or a cure increases exponentially.

Word of mouth about possible treatments options, cures and causations have been our primary “Bamboo Telegraph System” for the past 3 decades. This word of mouth system has kept many of us going through the toughest of times. Up until NOW,  all we have had to go on thus far as patients  is through our community based websites and word of mouth. We have been shunned and ignored by most of the medical, societal and familial realms, thus we turn to these support groups for encouragement and information. The lack of trained CFS/CFIDS/GWI/PTSD specialists in the Biological field to treat the millions of  patients of these combined diseases in the United States as well as the tens of  millions of  patients worldwide  is now at a critical point and time.

We now find ourselves at “The Crossroads”.  Viable Scientific studies on Viruses and Pathogens have been published that now give us more hope, more advantages and more options than at any other time in the past with our Diseases. The time is now ripe to get “Intimate” with our diseases. Now is the time for understanding. Now is the time to gain momentum towards lobbying for our disease. Now is the time to really understand what has happened to our bodies; how this has happened and how we can move forward with treatments available right now.

If we are to fully grasp this disease that has taken a hold of our Brains, Central Nervous System, Heart, Organs, Immune and Endocrine Systems and that has virtually destroyed our quality of life; it is time that we get to know this illness on a deeper level. It is time for us to get Intimate with our Viruses. Some of us do not have the luxury to wait another decade; let alone another year.

What we do know for sure is that  a percentage of cases are caused by A) a genetic predisposition and then B) activation occurs by a virulent trigger, a chemical/toxic trigger or a pathogen. We know that there are AT LEAST 2 subsets of CFS disease; if not more. We know that viral reactivation occurs when :  1) immune dysfnction occurs; 2) cellular dysfunction occurs; then 3) viral reactivation occurs of  HHV-6A, EBV, CMV and other co-infections.  It is imperative that the patient understands what subset of this disease they are in, for without this information they are literally flying blind.  It is only through this course of gaining knowledge and power that we can make informed decisions as to what viable  and sound treatment options we choose to go with.

I originally started writing Very Lucky Girl On Valcyte because I felt I was lucky to have been diagnosed and treated for the underlying causation of my Illness, which is Virus and Pathogens Infections.

 I also started writing this blog, because my son had contracted an illness at 14 years of age and by 19 years of age he was about to be enrolled in the Hospice Program and was given a form to fill out by IHSS for his “Last 5 Wishes in Life”. Watching my son, an extreme athlete, a top student, a top gun, and a passionate-handsome, loving and beautiful soul shutting down cognitively and physically ignited me to explore every option, every avenue and every viable scientific possibility for treatment to save his life. Being on 24/7 suicide watches on his behalf for nearly 2 years only made me more resolute to battle this hideous disease. My son was a passionate, fun loving, humorous soul who turned to suicidal thoughts and tendencies in order to escape the wrath of this disease. They say, “No soldier gets left behind.” My motto was and is, “My son does not die on my Watch.”

After 6 months on Valcyte, I knew my main mission was to write this Blog and to continue to explore every avenue, every nook, every crevice,  every sliver and every ray of hope for treatment and recovery from this disease that wipes out and erases entire lives. My heart acknowledges and grieves for those of you who have lost children to these diseases. I am continually saddened by each death I hear of due to these diseases.  I am committed to doing everything in my power to save lives of these patients. My main focus is Pediatrics and Military Personnel. Yet, hopefully through our work; more patient lives will be bettered as well as saved.  More patients will realize when they have been hit by a Virus and/or Pathogen  AND  to get tested if their symptoms PERSIST.

Howard W. Newton once said, “People don’t give a hoot about who made the original whatzit. They want to know who makes the best one.”  This is truth. Whatever treatment option you choose, whatever protocol works for you; make it the best informed choice for you.

The Branches of scientific research of  GWI/CFS/Lyme/Autism and viral outbreaks have encompassed research such as Natural Killer Cells involvement, Viral Reactivation, Tumor Necrosis Factor-Alpha, The Zero sed Rate Factor, Pathogens such as Micoplasma and Chlamydophila Pn., as well as a host of tick borne and rare pathogens.  Environmental Triggers such as   chemical, mold, toxins, vaccines and food sensitivities are equally as important in this research.

We now have VIABLE  SCIENTIFIC  Data linking and associating genetic predisposition, virulent triggers and viral reactivation to GWI/CFS/Lyme/Autism and Viral Outbreaks.

IF YOU GET HIT WITH A VIRUS or a “FLU” AND DO NOT RECOVER SUBSTANTIALLY within the Doctors prescribed frametime, PLEASE GET TESTED FOR THE VIRUSES AND CO-INFECTIONS LISTED IN PART #2 OF THIS BLOG.

 If you have been diagnosed with PTSD  or a TBI and exhibit 4 out of the 6  symptoms below: PLEASE GET TESTED.

If you have been diagnosed with Gulf War Illness and exhibit 4 out of the 6 symptoms listed below: PLEASE GET TESTED. Test codes are listed in Part #2 of this Blog. HHV-6A at 3x positivity or greater plus opportunistic infections are a sign of immunological breakdown. Central Nerovous System Meltdown happens as well. The HHV-6A  is a virus which takes action and causes failure in our Brains.

If you have an Autistic son or sibling: PLEASE GET THE IMMEDIATE FAMILY TESTED.

If you have Lyme Disease: PLEASE GET TESTED.

Once diagnosed with GWI/CFS/Autism/Lyme, the beginning protocol is to be tested for HHV-6A, EBV and CMV Viruses along with all Pathogens specific to the Disease. The HHV-6 tests should be done through Quest Labs or Focus Labs ONLY so that results can  be compared to recent proven published scientific studies that used Focus Labs in the clinical trials; which proved anti-viral treatment works on 70% of a certain subset patients .

 Patients around the world are at risk for a false-negative if tested at any other laboratory other than Quest/Focus for HHV-6A. Major Universities are using their own labs and telling patients they are “negative”. These same patients are then tested through Quest/Focus Labs and are showing up at 3X-8X positivity for HHV-6A.

 Quest Labs will send the HHV-6 tests to Focus Labs directly. If you test positive for HHV-6, a repeat test will need to be done exactly 4 weeks after your first positive test.  It takes 2 positives  at  a  4  week interval apart to  equal a true positive for treatment protocol  standards.

 Most doctors do not  know about HHV-6A  Virus or that Quest/Focus Labs are the Leader in this testing. Very few Doctors have any understanding of HHV-6; the fact that it can integrate by chromosome into the brain and the potentially disastrous CNS and Immune System Meltdown  this Virus can cause when activated above normal titer ranges. We are now seeing HHV-6A to be associated in neorological diseases such as CFS, MS, GWI, Autism, Lyme, Lupus, some forms of Cancer and many other diseases. We are seeing high suicide numbers in Patients who just cannot cope with the massive wrath of this CNS and Immune System illness combined with the effects on The Brain and the lack of medical attention directed towards diagnosing and treatment.

You are a candidate for Valcyte if you have ALL THREE of the Following:

1)  Your  EBV-Nuclear AG IGG is 3X positive or higher.   (The EBV-VCA IGG needs to be done as well, but treatment depends on the Nuclear test)

2) You test at least 3X positive or higher  for HHV-6;  at Quest/Focus Labs.

3) You have at least 4 of 6 symptoms listed below.

The Symptoms are:

1) impaired cognitive Function

 2) slowed processing speed

 3) sleep disturbance

4) short term memory deficit

 5) fatigue (profound fatigue with unrefreshing sleep)

6) symptoms consistent with depression.

This information is according to the Stanford Protocol: Journal of Clinical Virology 2006; 37:S33-38. Your physician can look this study up. You have the right as a patient to ask your doctor to run these blood tests mentioned above and you have the right to receive a copy of your lab results.

 I have listed a copy of the blood test lab codes in Part #2 of this Blog.  If you test High Positive for the CMV virus, then the only known treatment for this Virus at this time is Valcyte. The CMV can cause retinitis as well as  high Blood Pressure. If you have High Blood Pressure, it is advisable to get checked for the CMV virus  (Harvard Study).

Most physicians are unable to read nor understand HHV-6 results, thus they cannot interpret them and are in the Dark. Here is the positivity scale for  Quest Labs:

POSITIVITY IGG AB Titers for HHV-6

  • 1X…..1:10
  • 2X…..1:20
  • 3X…..1:40
  • 4X…..1:80
  • 5X…..1:16
  • 6X…..1:320
  • 7X…..1:640
  • 8X…..1:1280

Many infectious disease doctors are familiar with Valcyte and its’ usage for CMV.  Sales topped 36 Billion Dollars last year for this Drug and it is a well-tolerated and studied drug whose usage is mandatory in transplant patients (Excluding Liver Transplants). Valcyte is also FDA approved for Pediatric Patients.

In addition to the above-mentioned viruses, it is imperative to be tested for piggyback co-infections (Pathogens) such as Micoplasma and Chlamydophila Pneu Panel. These Pathogen  infections alone and/or in conjunction with Viral Reactivation can make  patients very ill.

 Our patients are notoriously low in DHEA-S. Laboratories list “normal ranges”  for DHEA-S  that are inadequate for those of us with CFS/GWI/Lyme/Autism. Young adults optimal range is between 300-790 depending on sex. Adult women’s optimal range is between 160-340. Although DHEA-S can be purchased OTC, it is best monitored by blood tests and a  compounded  prescription written by a licensed doctor for the correct dosage.

 Additional standard  tests include CBC W/ Differential; Comprehensive Metabolic Panels; Testo Free and Total; Cortisol, Serum L: C/MS/MS and of course Lyme disease. Ana Choice cascading reflex test is advisable. The Tumor Necrosis Factor-Alpha is also a definable test as it shows higher in patients and is strongly correlated with Natural Killer Dysfunction. Some scientists predict the Tumor Necrosis Factor-Alpha Test might be a strong indicator test to prove this illness in the future. Normal Range for this test is 1.2 – 15.3 pg/ml. I am at 222.8, which tells you how my natural killer cells are getting along.

It must be mentioned that a percentage of patients who test high and are in need of treatment will suicide with the HHV-6A Brain virus  if they do not get medical attention.  Our military suicide numbers in the past 2 years now outnumber Death in Combat.  GWI is rampant in the Military amongst both the deployed and non-deployed.

 The HHV-6A virus along with the other viruses and Pathogen infections are like a nuetron bomb to our Brain as well as our Immune Systems. Thus, we call these Stealth Viruses and Pathogens.

Getting Intimate with these Viruses and Pathogens and knowing what to test for is the first step towards gaining more knowledge of  the illnesses they correlate with.

I’ve been warned that  “It is not the Valcyte alone that gets the virus it is working on but a combination of both the medication and the body’s immune response in conjunction.” Diet plays an important role in combatting this monster. Environmental Triggers are essential to look at. Physical and mental stressors are damaging on the cellular level and can be life threatensing; this aspect of these diseases is essential to understand how to cope and to progress successfully.  Immune uptake regulators may be essential for certain subsets.

If we get Intimate with our Viruses and Pathogens and determine what we are dealing with; the chance of our personal treatment success is greatly expanded.

JULIA HUGO RACHEL

VERY LUCKY GIRL ON VALCYTE